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yoonzinobeing a (baby) gyuhan truther (#1 gyuhan rights activist at your service), i think it was only natural that by extension, i become deeply infatuated with & intrigued by wonhan. here you have jeonghan who tries his damnedest to keep his vulnerabilities hidden from the world and wonwoo, who so easily reads jeonghan from cover to cover and doesn't ever have a word of judgement for or against him -- he just allows jeonghan to be, and that's why wonhan work. that's why they're deeply in love and deserve everything good in the world.
evidently, after finding out that wonhan only have *checks notes* 136 otp:true fics in the svt tag (+ jeonghan's recent 28th birthday!) i just had to put my thoughts to paper. how could i not? wonhan deserve happiness and i am more than happy to deliver.
one of my favorite things about writing/reading kidfic is seeing the names that authors pick for the kids in question! i knew that i wanted wonhan to (a) have a daughter and (b) name her something meaningful, so i first settled on naming their daughter mina and started writing the fic with that name as a placeholder. i personally just really like mina as a name, so it's the default i usually pick when drafting aus or writing short ficlets on twitter. the thing is, i also associate mina with markhyuck because one of my dear friends (imel i love you) had a markhyuck physiotherapist/kidfic au where their daughter was named mina. so now we have a problem -- i can't just give markhyuck's kid to wonhan. it just doesn't feel right.
i ended up settling on eunseo after revisiting the meaning behind wonwoo's name, which i'm just absolutely enamored by.
won (圓) - round
woo (祐) - help, assist, aid, give / lend a hand
→ wonwoo = helping people with a round heart
i think it goes without saying that wonwoo truly exemplifies the meaning of his name so well in everything he does. i also think that if wonwoo & jeonghan were to have a child, they’d put a lot of consideration into their name and the person they’d want to raise them to be, thus why i settled on eunseo:
eun (恩) - kindness, mercy, charity
seo (瑞) - felicitous omen; auspicious
→ eunseo = charitable/merciful omen
there was also the question of seoksoon/verkwan’s daughters’ names & ages. for seoksoon’s daughter, i initially settled on haeun for her name since it means summer/grandeur and seoksoon remind me of both (see seokmin’s dazzling smile and soonyoung’s innate magical ability to light up an entire room with his presence). after writing out the aquarium scene and rereading it out loud, however, i thought that haeun and eunseo were too similar, so i toyed around with some other names — eunbi (also too similar in root), chaewon (i didn’t want the reader to associate her with the idol chaewon), eunchae (same issue. also why did le sserafim become my default all of a sudden) — until i ended on hyerin:
hye (慧) - bright, intelligent or (惠) favor, benefit, confer kindness
rin (潾) - clear water or (璘) luster of jade
with verkwan’s daughter, i knew i wanted something that combined both of their nationalities/backgrounds, so the first iteration of her name was actually sohee amelia boo-choi (if she were american, this naming convention totally would’ve worked out). i also thought about naming her beyonce for seungkwan, but. well. i think that would’ve drastically changed the tone that i was going for. since the setting is in korea, i settled on sohee choi (since seungkwan also loves sohee and, well, if seungkwan gets to decide the first name then vernon gets to give her his last name).
now: why daughters? why not boys? the answer is simple: i am biased and i think all of svt would be great girldads <3
first: i actually started writing this fic intending for it to be birthday smut. no angst or heavy themes, just pure porn without plot, but then i fell in love with the way that wonhan loved each other and their daughter so i just stuck with the fluff (and i’m really happy that i did. it’s not often that i thoroughly enjoy the writing process, so this was really refreshing for me because it came so easily.)
second: wonhan are really intriguing to me because of the way wonwoo seems like an open book but really isn’t (he’s quick to be honest if prompted, but he’s really thoughtful in the way he expresses himself — so much so that he can read as cryptic a lot of the time) and jeonghan seems like a closed book but when with the right person, opens up beautifully (he’s usually more reserved, especially in interviews/group settings, but you can definitely see how much more comfortable he is when he’s with people he loves or when he feels protected, eg. around jisoo (and dare i argue mingyu, because i’m crazy)).
when i wrote to the scene where wonwoo took jeonghan to cheongdam park, i wanted it to feel very bright and airy, but also slow, in a sense. wonwoo is taking jeonghan to the park they used to frequent when they first started dating so that jeonghan can nap under the sun and feel the breeze on his skin. i love when writers include moments like this in fics because as a reader, it helps me slow down and relax too. at a certain point, however (i think it was like 1am and i was a bit delirious, if i may be honest), i thought hey, what if we explored wonhan’s relationship dynamic a little bit? and then ended up writing this:
third, an addendum thanks to twitter user @miwon17_ who posted this:
evidently, after finding out that wonhan only have *checks notes* 136 otp:true fics in the svt tag (+ jeonghan's recent 28th birthday!) i just had to put my thoughts to paper. how could i not? wonhan deserve happiness and i am more than happy to deliver.
on the meanings of names
one of my favorite things about writing/reading kidfic is seeing the names that authors pick for the kids in question! i knew that i wanted wonhan to (a) have a daughter and (b) name her something meaningful, so i first settled on naming their daughter mina and started writing the fic with that name as a placeholder. i personally just really like mina as a name, so it's the default i usually pick when drafting aus or writing short ficlets on twitter. the thing is, i also associate mina with markhyuck because one of my dear friends (imel i love you) had a markhyuck physiotherapist/kidfic au where their daughter was named mina. so now we have a problem -- i can't just give markhyuck's kid to wonhan. it just doesn't feel right.
i ended up settling on eunseo after revisiting the meaning behind wonwoo's name, which i'm just absolutely enamored by.
won (圓) - round
woo (祐) - help, assist, aid, give / lend a hand
→ wonwoo = helping people with a round heart
i think it goes without saying that wonwoo truly exemplifies the meaning of his name so well in everything he does. i also think that if wonwoo & jeonghan were to have a child, they’d put a lot of consideration into their name and the person they’d want to raise them to be, thus why i settled on eunseo:
eun (恩) - kindness, mercy, charity
seo (瑞) - felicitous omen; auspicious
→ eunseo = charitable/merciful omen
there was also the question of seoksoon/verkwan’s daughters’ names & ages. for seoksoon’s daughter, i initially settled on haeun for her name since it means summer/grandeur and seoksoon remind me of both (see seokmin’s dazzling smile and soonyoung’s innate magical ability to light up an entire room with his presence). after writing out the aquarium scene and rereading it out loud, however, i thought that haeun and eunseo were too similar, so i toyed around with some other names — eunbi (also too similar in root), chaewon (i didn’t want the reader to associate her with the idol chaewon), eunchae (same issue. also why did le sserafim become my default all of a sudden) — until i ended on hyerin:
hye (慧) - bright, intelligent or (惠) favor, benefit, confer kindness
rin (潾) - clear water or (璘) luster of jade
with verkwan’s daughter, i knew i wanted something that combined both of their nationalities/backgrounds, so the first iteration of her name was actually sohee amelia boo-choi (if she were american, this naming convention totally would’ve worked out). i also thought about naming her beyonce for seungkwan, but. well. i think that would’ve drastically changed the tone that i was going for. since the setting is in korea, i settled on sohee choi (since seungkwan also loves sohee and, well, if seungkwan gets to decide the first name then vernon gets to give her his last name).
now: why daughters? why not boys? the answer is simple: i am biased and i think all of svt would be great girldads <3
on wonhan & extra ideas
first: i actually started writing this fic intending for it to be birthday smut. no angst or heavy themes, just pure porn without plot, but then i fell in love with the way that wonhan loved each other and their daughter so i just stuck with the fluff (and i’m really happy that i did. it’s not often that i thoroughly enjoy the writing process, so this was really refreshing for me because it came so easily.)
second: wonhan are really intriguing to me because of the way wonwoo seems like an open book but really isn’t (he’s quick to be honest if prompted, but he’s really thoughtful in the way he expresses himself — so much so that he can read as cryptic a lot of the time) and jeonghan seems like a closed book but when with the right person, opens up beautifully (he’s usually more reserved, especially in interviews/group settings, but you can definitely see how much more comfortable he is when he’s with people he loves or when he feels protected, eg. around jisoo (and dare i argue mingyu, because i’m crazy)).
when i wrote to the scene where wonwoo took jeonghan to cheongdam park, i wanted it to feel very bright and airy, but also slow, in a sense. wonwoo is taking jeonghan to the park they used to frequent when they first started dating so that jeonghan can nap under the sun and feel the breeze on his skin. i love when writers include moments like this in fics because as a reader, it helps me slow down and relax too. at a certain point, however (i think it was like 1am and i was a bit delirious, if i may be honest), i thought hey, what if we explored wonhan’s relationship dynamic a little bit? and then ended up writing this:
It used to annoy Jeonghan, how easily Wonwoo read him—a book flayed open, dissected cover to cover. How easy it was for him to pick Jeonghan apart, as if Jeonghan had been affixed by his wings with pins into styrofoam, glued into place while Wonwoo examined the hidden iridescence of his wings, the knobs in his antennae. Jeonghan wanted to be something to be admired from afar, something with brightly colored wings that warned of poison if consumed.i think, if i were writing something angstier, this would’ve been such a fun concept to delve into. in my mind, i don’t think that wonhan had it easy when they first started developing feelings for each other — i think that it was a slow, gradual thing that kind of snuck up on them and promptly overwhelmed them. and i think, with wonhan, they definitely felt very vulnerable and cut raw because of it, which is a scary feeling, but i also believe that love is a very powerful force and with someone like wonwoo, who at his core believes in being honest to himself even if it can end up hurting him, this fear can be overcome. he’s the one that confesses first because he loves jeonghan so much and wants jeonghan to know that he won’t hurt him — that love, in its all its glory and vibrancy, isn’t something to be afraid of. i hope that it’s evident based on the way i wrote this story that wonhan really have a deep trust and love and appreciation in each other.
third, an addendum thanks to twitter user @miwon17_ who posted this:
Q. What is Jeonghan sensei scared of?the terrifying ordeal of growing older. of thinking about mortality and of material things and of people around you and what they mean to you and how you can make an impact on the world for the brief moment of time that you are in it. again, this fic was meant to be just pure fluff, but if i’d gone for an angstier/more introspective character study, i’d love to explore jeonghan’s thoughts on aging & what it means for him to age. i kind of hint at his sentimentality throughout the fic and how much he loves and cherishes the people around him; maybe in the future i’ll explore this idea further and see what comes out of it. jeonghan i love you. i relate to you. you are my everything.
Jeonghan: i'm scared of time. why does time go by so fast day after day, when i close my eyes & then open them a year has already passed. rather than me, i feel more upset since my parents are getting older, so i'm scared of time
in conclusion